Wet concrete

I spit out my tooth

Tea stained enamel

Silver filling

Blood follows

I can hear the siren

Its drawing closer

The blood mingles with the rain

The tooth is washed downstream

The ambulance is here

Its midnight

My chariot beckons

I blink

No one sees


He comes to my bedside

And tells me all things must die

I stare through him

At the teeth chattering on the walls

At the decaying bouquets

In the corner of the room

I took his hand

And he smiled


I am four years old

I slip off my stepping stool

And crack my tooth

I am thirteen years old

I kiss Mary Kitts

I feel her tongue in my mouth

I am fifteen

I fall down the stairs

The cat licks my ear

My knight in shining armour

I am eighteen

I am drunk

I fight with my dad

He swings first

I am twenty-one

She breaks my heart

I am twenty-five

The night is stained with semen and sweat

I am twenty-nine

I never saw the car coming

I never stood a chance


I wake up

I see dim light below

It is the birth of a galaxy

I know this

But I do not know how I know this

I blink

The light changes


Glows fiercely

I blink

The light turns from red to green

Dozens of smaller lights circle around

I blink

The smaller lights have become sentient

I watch them watch me

They dart in and out of my vision

Some approach me

Some keep their distance

I blink

The creatures have become hostile

I blink

The creatures are gone

I see everything

I blink

A planet appears

It is blue

I move towards the surface

The clouds cushion my descent

They are comfortable

Like pillows

I blink

The impact from the vehicle

Travelling at seventy miles an hour

Flips me into the air

My head crashes first into the windshield

Then the concrete

The sounds I hear envelop me




The siren

The beep

The click


I am staring at a blank canvas

I blink

Mountain ranges burst forth from the land

Splitting the world asunder

I blink

Rivers flow

Like tears

I blink

I feel each tree

Each leaf

As it punches through the ground

I blink

I am a bird now

I am everything that ever was

I blink

I see planets

I see galaxies

I see the universe

And I see my wife

Sat by my hospital bed

In tears

Stroking my hair

Begging me

To just wake up

I am seven years old

Chris Rogers is punching me in the stomach

Everyone is cheering

I struggle to my feet

Pick up a rock

And smash it into his face

His teeth fly out

The screams part the crowd

The teacher grabs my throat


I wake up

My wife has gone

Her bag is on the chair next to my bed

She will return to me

As I have returned to her

I blink.

©Stuart Buck


I will be writing a blog for the excellent Under the Fable magazine again this weekend. Find them at



where the wild roses grow

Dawn is the best time for roses

When the petals weep

With new beginnings

When you can sit and watch

The petals unfurl

Turning from tightly packed bud

To proud explosions of colour

When my roses bloom

I feel like taking every single person I see

And screaming

‘this is why we are here

this is beauty

why can’t you see?’

The vase on my coffee table

Is full of roses.

©Stuart Buck


Absinthe makes the heart grow fonder

Sometimes I stare

At the enamelled absinthe poster

We bought from a thrift store in Montmartre

An overpriced attempt

To become more cultured

I look at the lady

In her green dress

And her green hat

Pouring green liquor

Into Emíle Cohl’s cup

And I remember

The night before we bought it

We sat up all night

In the cemetery where Dumas was buried

(I had to tell you who he was)

And we drank from a bottle

Of pale green absinthe

And convinced ourselves

We were hallucinating

(They stopped putting wormwood in years ago)

Desperate to feel

To mean

Something more

Than just bones

More than just an enamelled sign

And a return ticket home.

©Stuart Buck

Just another hashtag

As much as I enjoyed my holiday, its good to be home. Since I left, it appears we have another crisis on our hands. ISIS and Cecil the lion (remember him?) have been pushed back from the headlines, allowing refugees some time at the front of the news. I am not heartless, and I do feel for these people. I do not want to talk about refugees, rather the sad nature of what we feel requires our sympathy. The media does tend to dictate to us what we should be feeling, none more so than in the last week or so. With thousands and thousands dying every day, why give these people more attention than others. Are we morally responsible for the refugees? Or rather, as I suspect, are we purely pushing our anger and guilt at the state of the world onto the next hashtag. The next crisis.

Everyone is guilty of being manipulated by the media. Anyone who thinks otherwise is a plum. I watched Sue Perkins in Calcutta on BBC2 a few nights ago, and watched the children living under the underpass at the feet of the high rise apartment blocks. We were told of the conditions they face there, how they lay blankets on top of human waste to sleep at night. What difference them than refugees?

Its exasperating, especially because crisis after crisis nothing gets done. Lions will still be hunted, refugees will drown, wars will rage, ISIS will destroy, America will invade, China will pollute. Remember Charlie? Whats changed?

Well that’s my uninformed rant over. I should delete this and just post my poem, but I am too stubborn.

I wrote a short, snappy poem covering the above topic. You can find it here, now;

Media exposure

Should not equate

To sympathy.

Do not be told

Who to love

And who

To ignore


©Stuart Buck